It’s been a while.
Hello Tumblr-verse. It’s been a while. And that’s been a good thing. For me..
I’m happy. I think I’m going to be able to learn to love someone again. I know I’m 17 and love is tossed around so carelessly these days.. But I wanna be able to love again. I wanna be able to love him.
I get butterflies again. I blush again. I can’t sleep, because I’m thinking about him. I text him when I want to and he replies. He’s always the one to ask the questions. Gone are the days where I fish for information on a boy. I want him to care enough to ask.. and he does.
Being around him is intoxicating. Like a drug. A complete drug. For lack of a better quote. “he’s like my own personal brand of heroine.”… I haven’t let myself feel this way in a very long time. Sure there’s been someone here and there… But they haven’t meant anything. It’s been three years since I’ve felt this way. At first I was guarded with him.. But now.. I’m ready to dive in. I’m ready to take a chance dammit. Fuck what everyone says!
I don’t care about all these stupid “rules” to dating. I’m, ready to make my own damn rules. If I wanna tell him when i’m sad. I will! When I am pissed at him, I will tell him! When I look into his eyes and I know I love him, I want to tell him!
Here I am rambling to no one. But I have to explode my joy somewhere.